Following my path

I’m back. When I looked to see when I had last posted I was shocked to see it was April. I knew it had been a long time, but not that long!

This quote speaks to me. What have I been doing the past 7 months? Well, I’ve been working on “me”.

Those who have followed this site from the start know that my life has gone through quite a few changes in the past three years. I’ve been working on shedding where I thought I’d be at this stage of life, what it would look like, the path I took to get here.

During the spring and summer, I worked on understanding my core motivations with a friend who is also an Enneagram coach. He was starting his coaching business. He needed clients and I can always learn more about myself. I figured, “Why not?”. I learned a great deal. My learnings will be shared in upcoming blogs. (I’m a 7 on the Enneagram, if you’re familiar with it. Actually, the poster child for a 7).

Over the summer, I met quite a few of my neighbours. We’d have regular social gatherings (a.k.a. wine and beer) in the green space between our condos (and move into my garage if we were still there after 10:00 p.m). We’d also go to karaoke and live music nights at the local pub, the summer festivals in the park across the street, and visit at each other’s homes.

I watched my son get, and lose, his first job. However, as so often happens, it was the stepping stone needed to find another, better, job he truly enjoys. I never, in a million years, would have guessed my son would willingly – and consistently – get up at 0530 to be at work for 0630 and work 12 – 14 hour days.

This fall, we moved Martin’s dad to Chestermere from Kelowna. I’ve been able to get to know him better. What a sweet, quirky man. He will be 94 years old at the beginning of December. His stories are amazing. The things he’s lived through! He’s so different from my dad. As extroverted and talkative as my dad is, Martin’s dad is not (Martin comes by his introverted nature genetically). We found out they both love perogies, sausage, stuffing, and pumpkin pie so we may have the weirdest Christmas dinner this year. With them being 94 and 84 years of age, it’s all about giving them what they want and creating happy memories.

The last big change was for me to leave permanent, full-time employment and go out on my own. I now own a business called Synapse Learning, Inc. I started my instructional design career as a freelancer and I want to go into retirement the same way. I’m also looking at, eventually, going back into psychoeducational assessments and helping children with learning and behavioural problems.

Martin and I just celebrated three years since our first date and are considering buying home together in the next couple of years. Who knew relationships could be so easy?? Usually, after three years, I was starting to form an exit strategy. Not this time.

As you can see, I have quite a few stories to share as I reflect on the past several months and start my own business. My path is very different from where I thought I’d be, but I’m not lost. I welcome you to walk along with me.

90 Day Practice of Kundalini 

Upside Down View

Salamba Shirshasana:The Headstand pose in Hatha yoga tips my perspective upside. When I was younger standing on my head was easy. I wasn’t good at cartwheels or many “sporty” kinds of actions but I could easily stand on my head.

Today, I attempted one. To my chagrin I couldn’t do it. I accepted my current abilities and laid down with my feet propped up against the wall. The question to meditate with in this pose is “What would happen if my world was turned upside down?”

I just finished an eight week session that explored yoga practices related to the Kundalini system. I really enjoy the connection with the group from Yasodhara ashram and find that I learn an incredible amount about myself each time. One of the very clear realizations is my need for a firm foundation. This includes a discipline of practice. I am a bit stubborn and pride myself on being spontaneous and free to do whatever I want when I want. This attitude has some merits but it also has some flaws. I took two years off of life, just to float ( sometimes literally in my kayak on many lakes near my home). I put my watch away, and had no idea what day it was sometimes. Spring, summer and fall of 2022 was a blur, to be honest the last two years have been a blur.

So why am I feeling a need for a change in my behavior now? I feel like I need more. Time is speeding away. Hours have become days, days have become months and months have become years. The world is almost unrecognizable. I am well rested, I have ample opportunity for a great reset and have a plan to plug myself back into the grid of the living that exists outside my current bubble.

But first what I thought I might try is a deep dive into the theory and practices of the Kundalini system. I am going to use the books and techniques prescribed by Swami Radha as those are the ones I am most familiar with from being connected to the Yasodhara ashram. I am including other tools I have found effective in my yogic practice such as mantras and card decks. I will include the tools and references each day that I practice with in case you wish to try them yourself. 

It’s time to plant my feet in the sky. Feel the ethereal energy flow and realize that it is a lot harder to just walk away when I am unable to find purchase easily in my steps. Walking on air is something to strive for. 

How do I feel when my world is turned upside down? 

Shaky, vulnerable, a bit dizzy, inability to walk away, head rush, reverse direction of energy and blood flow.

I feel alive and ready to explore.

For reference: Kundalini-Yoga For The West and Hatha Yoga Hidden Language-Swami Radha

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