All that Space

This must be the fourth or fifth post I’ve tried to write. For so long, I’ve had the urge to write. Now that I have the space, the words don’t come.

What’s going on? The topics we choose for each month are of interest to me. I’ve got tonnes of ideas. I’m excited to talk about them in the podcasts. Get me in front of the screen to starting writing, and my mind goes blank.

Sure, I could say it’s because I started a new job this month and that’s taken up my time. That’s partly true. After three months off, having to get up and be alert for 8 hours a day was a challenge. For the first two weeks, I usually had a nap on the couch after work and was in bed earlier than normal.

I could say it’s because, during and after work, I need to make sure my dad gets his medications and cook his meals. I always have an ear open for him because, with his failing vision, he can get disoriented in the house.

There’s also two dogs who need my care and attention. Left to his own devices, Keo – my 120 pound rottweiler – is only too happy to amuse himself in fun and creative ways (that usually result in some type of clean-up for me!).

For an entire month, we talked about creating space. You’d think I’d have practiced what I preached! In some ways, I did. I’ve created mental and emotional space. I purged my home office and bedroom (with more purging to happen when we can hold a garage sale). I’m feeling comfortable in all the spaces I’ve found.

With all the space created, why is sitting down to write so daunting? Is it because I don’t feel I have anything of value to contribute? Nah. I know what I share won’t resonate with everyone, but it will resonate with some. Is it because I don’t have ideas to share? Gosh no. I have loads of them!

Maybe it’s because I wasn’t quite ready to fill the spaces I’ve created. I was figuring out what was important to me, what I truly value, and being selfish with the space I’ve created.

A couple of books helped me get back to writing. Both are written by Sarah Knight. First, there was “You Do You”, and then, “The Life-Changing Magic of Not Giving a F*ck”. The next podcast will be about what we’ve learned from the latter book. Let’s just say, I’ve created spaced, I’ve sorted my f*cks, and I know where they are going to be spent.

You’ll be hearing more from me in the future!